The Path of Amazement
by Seyyid Seyfullah NizamogluEnglish version by Jennifer Ferraro and Latif Bolat
Original Language Turkish
I cannot say who it is I am
I am amazed, I am amazed!
I cannot call this self 'myself'
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Who is in my eyes seeing?
Who is in my heart enduring?
Who is inhaling and exhaling?
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Who is speaking with my tongue?
Who is listening with my ears?
Who is understanding with my mind?
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Who is stepping with these feet?
Who is tasting with my mouth?
Who is chewing and who swallowing?
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Who holds these riches in his hand?
Who is the one throwing them away?
Who is buying and who selling?
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Why is there life coursing below my skin?
Why are my eyes bloodshot from crying?
Why this religion, why this faith?
I am amazed, I am amazed!
O Seyyid Nizamoglu, hear this:
Everything comes from the One.
Abandon yourself to this mighty beauty
I am amazed, I am amazed!
-- from Quarreling with God: Mystic Rebel Poems of the Dervishes of Turkey, Translated by Jennifer Ferraro / Translated by Latif Bolat |
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I cannot say who it is I am
I am amazed, I am amazed!
This poem so interesting to me because of the way it fits with non-dualist traditions. The term "non-dualism" comes from the assertion or realization that there is no so such thing as duality. Despite the apparent multiplicity of existence, with its dizzying kaleidoscope of people and places and things, there is in reality only one unified Being. Carrying this insight further, there is no separate self, no self separate from other selves, no self separate from God.
Who is in my eyes seeing?
Who is in my heart enduring?
Who is inhaling and exhaling?
Some non-dualist pathways specifically use practices like this, a rigorous inquiry into the senses and perception, working through the layers of awareness. You might start by asking, What is it I see? What is it I feel with my touch? Then, How does perceiving this make me feel? What are my reactions? How do I tense or relax? Do I become agitated with anticipation of pleasure or pain? What thoughts does this perception trigger, and do I believe them?
And so the practice progresses, moving deeper until we begin to ask questions about the source of perception and awareness, from what to who. Who is thinking and feeling and perceiving? Who is it looking through my eyes? Who is it, really, who tastes that orange or listens to that songbird?
When we really look for that self, we don't find it. There is an unexpected emptiness where we have always imagined the most important thing in the universe -- one's self -- to be.
But then something wondrous happens. That emptiness lights up! We find instead a spacious, radiant being of bliss that is timeless and utterly whole.
We find not the self, but the Self.
I cannot call this self 'myself'
I am amazed, I am amazed!
We find that we are not the wounded, isolated being we so long imagined ourselves to be.
Instead, seated there in grandeur is something unimagined, immense beyond description, filled with an all-embracing love and quiet clarity. And amazingly, that someone is at rest within you! (If you can say you exist at all, which you can't.)
Abandon yourself to this mighty beauty
I am amazed, I am amazed!
Have a beautiful day on this path of amazement!
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