{"id":8558,"date":"2025-04-25T08:30:31","date_gmt":"2025-04-25T15:30:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.poetry-chaikhana.com\/blog\/?p=8558"},"modified":"2025-04-25T08:30:31","modified_gmt":"2025-04-25T15:30:31","slug":"rainer-maria-rilke-i-am-praying-again-awesome-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.poetry-chaikhana.com\/blog\/2025\/04\/25\/rainer-maria-rilke-i-am-praying-again-awesome-one\/","title":{"rendered":"Rainer Maria Rilke – I am praying again, Awesome One"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am praying again, Awesome One
\nby Rainer Maria Rilke<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

English version by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy<\/font><\/p>\n

I am praying again, Awesome One.<\/p>\n

You hear me again, as words
\nfrom the depths of me
\nrush toward you in the wind.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been scattered in pieces,
\ntorn by conflict,
\nmocked by laughter,
\nwashed down in drink.<\/p>\n

In alleyways I sweep myself up
\nout of garbage and broken glass.
\nWith my half-mouth I stammer you,
\nwho are eternal in your symmetry.
\nI lift to you my half-hands
\nin wordless beseeching, that I may find again
\nthe eyes with which I once beheld you.<\/p>\n

I am a house gutted by fire
\nwhere only the guilty sometimes sleep
\nbefore the punishment that devours them
\nhounds them out into the open.<\/p>\n

I am a city by the sea
\nsinking into a toxic tide
\nI am strange to myself, as though someone unknown
\nhad poisoned my mother as she carried me.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s here in all the pieces of my shame
\nthat now I find myself again.
\nI yearn to belong to something, to be contained
\nin an all-embracing mind that sees me
\nas a single thing.
\nI yearn to be held
\nin the great hands of your heart\u2013
\noh let them take me now.<\/p>\n

Into them I place these fragments, my life,
\nand you, God \u2014 spend them however you want.<\/em><\/p>\n

<\/a> \u2014 from Rilke\u2019s Book of Hours: Love Poems to God<\/a>, by Rainer Maria Rilke \/ Translated by Joanna Macy<\/font><\/p>\n


\/ Image by Klara Kulikova<\/a> \/<\/em><\/font><\/p>\n

I am praying again, Awesome One.<\/i><\/p>\n

I like that opening line. Personal, honest, no pretense of formula.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been scattered in pieces\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n

Scattered, disjointed, plundered, befouled. Feeling this way, how does one ever feel whole again?<\/p>\n

I yearn to belong to something, to be contained
\nin an all-embracing mind that sees me
\nas a single thing.<\/i><\/p>\n

The first thing I would say is that the solution is not to return to a time when things were good or normal. Crises only arise when problems have been ignored. This is true on a personal, spiritual level, and it is true on the societal level. <\/p>\n

So when we look back on a time in our lives when things felt more \u201cright,\u201d the first thing to do is to notice what we missed or ignored. Be willing to see what was not right about it. What were our secrets? What was our pain? Who suffered and was kept silent?<\/p>\n

The first step is not to fix the brokenness. It is to feel the brokenness. It is to see it. As this poem does. If we are broken, let us see it and feel it. All of it.<\/p>\n

Of course, to do so means the destruction of our cherished heroic self-story. But there is a strange magic that happens when we let that story fall apart and finally look into the shadows. Hidden in those hurt and hurtful corners is so much of ourselves. We can\u2019t be complete without them. They may seem ugly or shameful. We may not know how to welcome them back into a healthy and functional sense of being. But it is all us.<\/p>\n

All of those shadowy fragments, in ourselves, in society, they are the missing pieces that complete us. The failures we don\u2019t want to admit in ourselves, they are the key to our success. The path to wholeness is through the brokenness, not away from it.<\/p>\n

But how does one integrate it all? How does one atone for the hurts caused, heal the hurts received? No problem can ever be solved at the same level on which it was created. We need to step past the ego and the repeating justifications of the calculating mind in order to invite a higher level of intelligence. We might think of this as calling upon God or a Higher Power or simply a higher awareness within ourselves. We don\u2019t have to know at the level of the intellect, but we have to be honest with ourselves, humble, courageous and open. Then watch what happens.<\/p>\n

As the poet says with his own words of courage and humility:<\/p>\n

Into them I place these fragments, my life,
\nand you, God \u2014 spend them however you want.<\/i><\/p>\n


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<\/a>Recommended Books: Rainer Maria Rilke<\/font><\/b><\/p>\n\n

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<\/a><\/td>\n<\/a><\/td>\n<\/a><\/td>\n<\/a><\/td>\n<\/a><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
The Enlightened Heart: An Anthology of Sacred Poetry<\/a><\/small><\/td>\nAhead of All Parting: The Selected Poetry and Prose of Rainer Maria Rilke<\/a><\/small><\/td>\nThe Soul is Here for its Own Joy: Sacred Poems from Many Cultures<\/a><\/small><\/td>\nRilke\u2019s Book of Hours: Love Poems to God<\/a><\/small><\/td>\nIn Praise of Mortality: Rilke\u2019s Duino Elegies & Sonnets to Orpheus<\/a><\/small><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
More Books >><\/a><\/i><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/table>\n

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\n\"Rainer<\/a>\n<\/td>\n\nRainer Maria Rilke<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

Germany (1875 \u2013 1926) Timeline<\/a>
\nSecular or Eclectic<\/a><\/a>
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